Ah Khang

Life

The are some moments in life

When you have to make a decision

To make a logic and wise decision

Even though it is against your wish and feeling

But you know it is a right thing to do

I have this moment coming now

No more hesitation this time

After the decision, It's a sunny day

With a wide path in front

And I am taking this path.

Definitely.

Ronron

She left me in the morning of 7^th April without slightest indication. My cat Ronron, or I would refer as my best friend, as usual crept up early in the morning trying to open my bedroom door. She had this skill of jumping on the door handle and then swung with her body weight to open every door in the apartment. I was still in deep sleep as thus I shrugged off the noise she made. She did that every morning, so I was accustomed to her behavior.

10 minutes later, I woke up to start my day. It was almost 7:30am. I took a shower as usual and Luc suddenly came in total distress to tell the bad news, Ronron was found dead on the kitchen table. My first thought was that it was impossible, nor that I wanted to believe it. I followed him doubtfully and there I saw the warm body of Ronron lying peacefully on the table without any single heartbeat. The horror started to sink in, I tried hard to jolt her body hoping that it might bring her back to life, but in vain. She was already gone, just like that, leaving her adorable home just in a few minutes…

I was in total dismay the whole morning. Tears started filling up my eyes, I couldn’t accept the fact. I always said I would be in great pain to see Ronron leave me in 10 years when she would die of old age. But not like this, I just couldn’t imagine my cat who has accompanied me for 4 years, day and night, suddenly just walked out of my life. ..

I took her body to the vet, of course no clue can be given by the vet either, as she left too suddenly. Might be cardiac attack, or blood clot… I didn’t want any autopsy, that wouldn’t bring her back, and anyway there was no guarantee to find a cause either.

The rest of the day, I was unable to do anything. I only felt desperate, hopeless and terrible. I keep thinking of all the nice moments Ronron had given me in these 4 years, all the retrospects never stopped flooding my mind. I cried, and cried again. There is no Ronron sleeping on my hips now when I watch TV, no more Ronron crawling up my pant asking for foods when I cook, no more Ronron asking for tap water when I brush my teeth, no more Ronron gently putting her hand on mine when I work in front of my computer… I am so used to live my life with her, repeating the daily itinerary with her participation. Now I am left alone…

She was the reason of the absence of solitude in my world.

I just want to dedicate this post to her, thank you Ronron for giving me such a wonderful time and for sharing my life. Even though your life is short, I hope you had lived a good life with all my loves. I am still sad now, but I know one day the pain will disappear, and you will stay there as my best and most beautiful memory in my life.

I miss you!

Ronron in her bed watching me tenderly

She learned to kiss me by touching her nose on my nose

Her favorite spot to sleep.

And here finally a poem to express my thoughts...

If I had known that on that day our time was near the end,

I would have done things differently, my forever friend.

I would have stayed right next to you deep into the night, but I thought I'd see you in the early morning light.

And so I said "Good night" to you as I walked in through the door, never thinking of the time when I'd see you no more.

But if I had known that on that day our time...

Unhappy

They say it's not a good year for those under the Chinese horoscope of Goat
I just didn't believe it....
I read the prediction every year but I disregard it mostly

Unfortunately, they have got me this year
The first day of the year started badly
Things are not progressing
Work is gloomy
My most loving cat left me in total dismay
Relationship is jeopardized
and me, I am unhappy...

I have been living with great contentment these years
I guess I have to compensate these happiness once in a while
I might loose more of the things that I care this year
but I will not loose myself

If nobody is going to love me, I will learn to love myself.
And I still don't want to believe the horoscope...

January Recap

It has been some times since I last updated my blog. Nothing special really happened. January has been filled with works and badminton in general.

I have joined two badminton tournaments at B2 level. I managed to reached men single quarter final for both events, and reached final for the men double event. Seems to be a decent result, though I was physically not tiptop due to some muscle pains and tendonitis.

Chinese New Year was supposed to be the highlight of the month. The inner jubilance was always stirred up whenever this special day approached. After all I have always enjoyed the feast and gone through all the special traditions with my family back in hometown. However in Belgium you can't really expect any ambiance, not the slightest decoration nor news. Well of course I do realize I am in Belgium, not China or Malaysia…

So I had a great Dim Sum in Antwerp as the reunion meal on Chinese New Year's Eve, and then the next day a big dinner with a bunch of closed friends in Brussels center. I was glad to have at least laid my hands on great mahjong games with some friends. Love it :)

Had my yearly evaluation at work and it turned out to be outstanding. In the company many people are on the bench now without a project, so the rumor of large scale retrenchment is spreading wildly. I will normally be released from the current project early April, let's see what my destiny lies ahead…

More photos (South America)

Just found a few portrait pictures that I have got from the South America trip. :)

On Amantani island in Titicaca lake in Peru: Wearing a local made hat before attending the dance

Posting in Santa Catalina Convent in Arequipa, Peru.

In the hotspring near the geyser in San Pedro de Atacama, Chile

Taking the train from Cusco to Puno.

Christmas Tree

Finally it's Christmas season again! I have just visited the Christmas market in Brussels and I was totally stunned by the beauty of the display this year, not to mention all those lovely shops and foods and presents in sales.

And then it just struck me that I have not yet put up the Christmas tree yet! Normally I always did it around end of November. I just love to put up the Christmas tree while listening to my favourite Christmas song, it just makes it so festive and homey. Furthermore I am throwing a Christmas dinner party at home on 20th, so tonight I was just so inspired to have the tree ready. Here you can see how I put up the tree: